Yay.. Another Jon Update.

(E-mail From Jon In Red) (My E-mail Reply In Dark Blue)

ok so i have a few things left to say to u. as far as me tellin Olivia and Kristen tht thing...i only sed tht to kristen. i never said it to olivia. and second of all, the way u would b able to kno tht i wuz tellin the truth was just by the way i acted and tried to treat u. u have to take tht kind of thing by faith. if u had ever really loved me u would understand what i am saying. also, i dont care what bad crap u have to say about me, but if u have something to say, say it to my face and not behind my back. i dont deserve to b treated lyk tht. so have a nice life without me taylor. im sure it will b much better for u that way.

signed,
Jon Welborn

Jon, wutever. Okay. JUST WUTEVER. U kno i loved u okay? And u sure as hell kno i cared about u! I didnt defyi my parents for a month just so i could b with u if i didnt care! And i havent said ANYTHING behind yer back, other than talking about our situation with sum peepz. Im sure u've been sayin sum junk to ZACH about me, i kno u said sumfin to casey! And that controllin' playa thing, when u said that junk about mayo wuz pushin the line, That i was ALL OVER HIM -_-" And at the Christmas party when i went to hang out with him, that too. I can't take this drama, Jon. its completely gettin out of hand! We need to handle it and get over it, okay? I wanna be friends with u.. But after seein all this crap.. I would never be anything more than friends. I rlly thought after all this junk we went thru it would all work out ya kno? That u were actually the 1 i was gonna meant to be with...
Anyway. C'yah
TaYlOr.

ok, so about the chirstmas party...i didnt care tht u were hangin out wit mayo i did care ab the fact tht u ignored me tht time. and me, mayo and zach all saw the txt msgs ab u playin me up to b the only one who was "physical" last thursday which wasnt true at all. and another thing...i rle wasnt tht mad ab the mayo thing wit mayo at lunch. and i rele didnt think u were all over him. the only thing tht irritated me was the fact tht u n mayo were leaning over me n tht was just irritating. but i got over it in lyk five mins. taylor i love u now and i always have and i always will. im sorry ab tht first email i wrote tht on monday when all this was fresh. all i sed to casey btw was tht it rele hurt me wat u said and tht i still loved u n i always would but tht i hated what u had said. but i never trash tlkd u. i never stopped loving u and and i never will. but im sorry about what happened and i rele wished tht we couldve worked this out but obviously u dont want tht and i want u to be happy i just wish tht u cld b happy with me. im sorry i failed u and im sorry for any pain i may have caused u. just kno ill love u till the day i die taylor. and you will always have a piece of my heart.
love always,
Jon

I didnt reply back. I was to pissed to even deal with it.

How much does THAT suck!!?? Now i feel lyk a total piece of crap!! Jon has always had a good nack for makin pplz feel bad about themselves.... And it is definatly workin!!! I rlly have no idea wut to say or do! Honestly, Im no trying to sound self-concided, cuz thats just not meh. But im a rlly nice person! I can't just go around hurting ppl!! Even if they hurt me (JON!!)! Hurting them back won't do any good! Plz! Sum1 tell me wut i should do!!! I want to get the message thru that i don't wanna be with him without being a bitch about it! But idk how to do that!? I've never been good with rejecting pplz. But.. I need sum advice! HELP!